Thursday, July 25, 2013

Wanting and needing.

Happy Thursday pretties!

For a while now I have been following the She Reads Truth bible studies- if you haven't heard of them, check them out! They have a blog with a short devotional and I have found all of the studies to be great, click here to check it out!

The most recent devotionals have been about women in the bible. Now I'll admit that sometimes (actually a lot of the time) I have the hardest time digging into The Word, especially the Old Testament, and ESPECIALLY Genesis. I'm not sure what it is, but it is something that I really struggle with. Sometimes as I read the scripture for the day, I find myself wondering what the take home message is, for example, it took me a while to understand that Sarai was not waiting for God's plan by giving Hagar to Abram, but rather she was placing her own plan into action. I struggle with seeing myself in some of the women in the bible, though I know we share many of the same qualities.

One of the biggest things that I have been struggling with lately is materialism. My family has always given me way more than I deserve and I have never really had to monitor my spending. I believe that the financial limitations that have come with my marriage have been the hardest for me to get used to. I've spent a lot of time thinking about this, and also thinking of the things that I want, only to become disgusted with myself. Shouldn't I want Jesus more than any of that?

I believe that marriage is designed to make us more holy people, to make us more like Jesus. Marriage requires you to die to your own wants and desires, and to consider the wants and desires of another, even before yourself. I mean, look at the image of Christ and His Church. If he behaved the way we do in our marriages, we would be in a much different place as Christians, and sinners.

My marriage is making me more holy. Not that I am holy in the least bit, but I feel that I'm learning more about sacrifice than I ever could have as a 'single lady.' God is using my struggle to transform me, and friends, there's not much sweeter than that.

Tell me ladies, what has been your biggest relationship (if you're not yet married) or marital adjustment?

Thanks for stopping by!




  1. oh my goodness, Laurel! I love this!
    It is wonderful to see how God is already at work in you as a married woman. Thank you for being transparent in your struggles with materialism. I think a lot of us ladies struggle with our desire to have everything cute.
    My biggest struggle so far is simply not trusting God in our future. I can see repeatedly His efforts to give me courage and trust in His plans for us.

    1. Thank you, Claire! And thanks for sharing! I also struggle with not trusting God, especially when it comes to our future! I know that when I do trust in God and give it all to Him, my stress just melts away! Praying for you about this!! Xx!

  2. I thought the same thing about Sarai during my study, but realized that I too want to put my own plan into action rather than wait for the Lord. And I'm so with you on materialism, I struggle with figuring out what I need and want. I think that is the biggest adjustment since I began dating my guy of 2.5 years was trusting both the Lord to show me a guy worth it, and trusting my boyfriend with my life. Whew has the Lord taken a hold of it and I'm so grateful for it.

    1. I'm so glad that someone is with me! I feel so silly sometimes because I totally miss things, I just need to listen to the Holy Spirit more and I know that I'll be better off : )
      I know how hard trust can be, in any aspect, and especially something as important know...your LIFE! It's hard to forget that the Lord never breaks His promises, but when we remember that and hold true to that, life becomes much sweeter! Happy Friday friend!!